Jan. 19th, 2011 | 01:36 am
music: Like That :: Static Revenge

Oh Hi~ Updating from work again since I guess LJ isnt completely blocked anymore but they have the communities blocked and other 'social networking' websites.  And yes, ahahahaha I have neglected my blogspot post for ALA. :P
I dont think I'll ever get it up anytime soon. Oh, well the effort was there. I know I have several other products I've been meaning to do a review on /: and guides on hair dyes and color brands and etc.
lawls. again, on backlogged. FOREVER. AHAHAHAHAHA. I dont know how those blogger girls can keep up. Lawls.

Stayed up super late last night again talking with Shou and was watching on/off Shutter Island on netflix on my laptop and at the same time trying to repack my duffel bag and suitcases to make things easier for me to start maneuvering again since Dad's flying in tomorrow from Florida and I guess has made the decision to stay in CA even though the rest of the family is in Florida. Its his decision. But with that said, I'm being...more or less...booted out since grandma is going to need room for Dad /: so I guess I'm going to start staying with my brother at the condo but I'll be forced to sleep on the couch ==  yay. zero privacy. yay bitchy brother. yay for smelly condo :D. yay for shitty couches.
Iunno it cant possibly be any worse than I make it seem /: come August, it'll be a year that I'm living off a suitcase.

Truth be told, I remember before moving out on my own completely - when I was staying with the Ellwoods,
I was still living off a suitcase D: lawls. coz steph had her junk everywhere still and oh to be so young and naive I should have rented a storage unit then but I clearly didnt know any better. LAWLS.
Oh that was a nightmare, though I had a 'room' to sleep in, I was still more or less secluded to sleeping on a couch. ==ll but we survived that. And from there I moved and got my own place/rental room D: that was fun while it lasted...it was tiny, it was annoying but like I said in my previous post TAT you could never truly appreciate something until you loose it. And though I didnt have a 'real kitchen'
(I had my mini fridge and rice cooker) it was still fun and my own little pad :D where I didnt have to answer to anyone.
It was lonely at times but it was still ok, I kinda miss that. That was...wow. Not that long ago but feels like so long.

Frankly, to be honest, I'm kinda annoyed that I have to prematurely move into my brothers place just coz my dad is coming back. Its not that I dont want him here but, I've been brooding over this for far too long.
I want him to accept that we're all grown up and I cant expect to live with him again. And I dont know what my moms plans are regarding moving back to California or not /: ugh. Iunno. But hopefully things work out coz I personally still have lot of shit of mine to take care off.

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I was gonna go on an endless banter but clearly I forgot alot of it /:

Might re-edit this post later to add more D:

I'm sorry you have such shit luck with relationships, frankly, if this was me a little while ago, I would be all like 'lawls~ I'm sorry but I was the best thing to ever happen to you~ but I guess if you really dont like someone, you really just dont'
but no really, I honestly would have been hurt in a way. But at the same time I simply want you to be happy.
And now hearing that your new gf broke your heart and fucked you over again, simply... saddens me. Almost to the point of feeling guilty that...
I dont care. That. I'm over you. That, I feel like I've found someone that makes me happy and yet your not.
It just sucks that everyone you seem to like, seems to screw you over.
Perhaps secretly I'm still wishing I was 'the one that got away' even though you were the one that let me go. Or casted me aside. Maybe secretly I want to be the 'what if...' girl.
but frankly, right now. I dont even want to go there or even think about it.
I'm....satisfied with where I am. I may not be with you, I may not be with her either. But. I like this little game.

[I dont think I can find it in me to even really agree to anything solid with her, not until I am on my feet and away from here]