Feb. 10th, 2011 | 06:15 pm

Minimalism! Spartan lifestyle for the win, well, I stayed up too late again last night talking with Shou and watching Sparticus on Netflix, and I ended up passing out on the other couch (not the usual cough I sleep on) and this time I slept with just a blanket and no pillow, normally I'd take out all the cushions on one of the couches and lay out another blanket underneath and surround myself with pillows. But yes, I figured I wanted to try and be more minimalistic last night - considering everyone was in a pretty sour mood - bros roomie/stephs dad was in a testy mood and i feel like I've been once again imposing on everyone having to sleep in the living room ==ll
I normally sleep in bros room but seeing as his gf was in town, I've been booted to the couch. Ugh. it wasnt THAT bad but I'm sure dads starting to realize I'm not getting as much good of a sleep as I should be. I cant complain. Wont complain.
but, I am disgusted in a sense when I walk into the common room and seeing bro and his gf....being... gross.
I just have to...endure. Endure. Endure. Things will eventually work out for me.

I've talk to Shou about me digging myself out of debt and getting my life together and moving to LA. As much as I appreciate her wanting me to be there and etc, I sometimes wish she wasnt so pushy and understand where I'm coming from D:
its not hard to move cities when your broke and in debt, I'm sure she would understand but I'm just in a testy situation....

After the out burst Mr. E about having to pick up the slack for everyone else, so I spent the entire morning, after heading to the gym(oh man it was astruggle just getting out of bed and I feel EXHAUSTED right now. Normally iyou're suppose to get MORE energy working out but thats not the case for me right now lawls~) but yeah, I attacked the bathroom again after spending an entire night last night trying to clean it, for some reason someone messed it up again this morning and I need to vent that my brother and his gf does NOT scrub down the toilet bowls and counter tops =___= and I am disgusted by the fact that we have a MOP! not a swiffer =___= gross.
and I also went ahead and attacked the kitchen. ugh. I am NOT about to be their damn maid. Theres my vent for today.

I also picked up a small bowl of express instant oatmeal since I'm trying to try and force it down and see if I can convince my palette to down it every morning before hitting the gym ;_; that means also trying to get up 3-4 hrs ahead of schedule and eating, digesting for an hr or two before hitting the gym. And being all done with it all by noon so I have the rest of the day to chill before work at 4. Attempting to. Attempting to. I need to try and get a schedule back on track again.

I figured I understand that I need to try and get 5-6 small portioned meals, but that cost money LOL. And I'm trying to avoid spending any $$ on food since I'm living on a very very very strict budget D': since I am currently on a 20 hrs a week schedule with a $500 rent =_=;;

Anyways moving on.
Ash texted me this morning again, I guess, i was an idiot and gave in. I realized its pointless being weird and stupid.
And I finally explained to her what was going on.

C'es la vie.