Feb. 2nd, 2011 | 01:58 am

on Friday night when I almost practically gave up on any chances of me ever going to Lil Tokyo for the weekend for the Q store opening / gallery opening /  just to get out of Sd weekend. - My brother said he finally talked to Dad and got some stuff straightened out. Only after wasting our time the entire day running around banks trying to figure out this financing bullshit.

Bro said he had a heart-to-heart talk to Dad, I couldn't bring myself to. I was still a pretty moody mess.
They pretty much just talked about how moody I've been and why. Long story short bro...stepped up and became my big bro again, there was a long period of time where I've been feeling so alone and irritated with him and everyone.
He had mentioned to my dad to back off and stop grinding me down and telling me how irresponsible I am. No one foresaw all this and that.
I was kinda glad in a way to finally have my brother step up once again and BE the brother. I've written and rambled so much in the last few months how frustrated I have been with him. And I guess my Dad kinda stepped back at that point and realized that yes, I /need/ my dad. Not another parent yelling at me and making me feel even more like shit.

I've calmed down alot since then and have intended on posting an entry before but pretty much lost track/got tired and distracted by other things. I'm lame and blogging has become harder and harder for me to be keeping up on.

I'll edit this entry again later....