daddys little girl

Super personal entry.
While I was working this morning. My iPod thought it would be a good idea to play 'Pink's Family Portrait' Song. I decided to skip that song. I don't need that right now.

Then for some reason I thought it was a good reason to sit down and look up Frankie J's DaddyLittle Girl song.

This song use to tug at my heart strings when my  dad first left years ago. Years a later hes back and had to go again.
I don't know. If I listened to this months ago when shit first blew up. It'd probably ball up and cry. Now. I just sit here with a stoic expression. I don;t want this to tug at me like it did. But deep down. I guess there are things I know I will grow up to regret.

He fucked up. He needs to understand that.
Can I find it in me to forgive him.
I should.
Just not now. I'm still bitter and very angry.
But reading the comments from the people below (youtube) people were commenting on their relationship with their own dad. Some good. Some bad.

I know I'll live to eventually regret this.
But why should I. He didn't really pay much attention to us.
Was he waiting for us to be the one that makes the connection. We've tried.
We keep trying.
I chased him down when shit first all blew up.
I was there by his side when it all went up and blew it in his face.

If only he can swallow his own pride and admit hes been lying to me to.